SILENT HEARTBEATS

In a good way.

Fell down the stairs and hurt my leg, so missed P.E. It wasn’t a very good start haha.

I realised today that, there is a pleasure you can get out of just… being. The more time I spend in their company, the more my heart returns to Him and Alhamdulillah.As days go by, the bitterness disappears and I’m starting to remember how good it feels to just… pay someone a random compliment and make them smile, to make them feel good. Today was one of those days; just smiles and happiness and…a couple of tears lol. 

This afternoon, I had to a speaking and listening. I used something I wrote a year or so ago, but changed around a bit. It was about depression, a stillborn baby.After a while, I got really emotional and I started crying lol. I half planned to, but… it just brought back so many memories and idk lol. They loved it though. Alhamdulillah. But I don’t think I’ll be reading anything so personal again anytime soon. 

I think today I learnt a lot about myself. It was just a reminder that, I’m still on the learning curve but it also reminded me that there is always hope and things get better. 

Alhamdulillah. La Tahzan InnAllaha ma’ana. <3  

I’m finally leaving the past.

Went round my aunties house with my cousins and my aunties to skype with my nani back home. It was amazing. It felt so good to see her face again :’) Alhamdulillah. She’s my favourite person in theentire world. She’s so beautiful.  May Allah swt bless her and always keep her well insha’Allah. I miss her so much </3 

regional maths competition coming up. asdfghjkl nervousssss, there’s gunna be cameras and itll be on the news and stuff and idontlikethat. O.o 

Alhamdulillahhhh

nobackspacekey:

Boundaries don’t keep other people out; they fence you in. Life is messy, that’s how we’re made. You can waste your life drawing lines or you can live your life crossing them.

There are some lines that are way too dangerous to cross. Here’s what I know: if you’re willing to take a chance, the view from the other side is spectacular.

saifullah786:

“There is a polish for everything that takes away rust; and the polish for the heart is the remembrance of Allah.” [Bukhari]

Be calm. 

You will survive. 

nobody will hurt you in the way that 

You did to me.

Nobody will treat you badly or 

Lock doors on you or 

Leave you covered with scars. 

You will survive it. 

I speak from experience.

In the way that 

I survived you. 

In the way that I 

survive you. 

Assalamu wa alaikum.

May Allah swt ease all of your suffering. May He bless you and protect you and grant you with every happiness in both this world and the Hereafter. I hope you’re well insha’Allah, and may we meet in Jannah insha’Allah :) 

arabarabarab:

“You shall not enter Paradise until you believe, and you have not believed until you love one another. Shall I tell you of something you can do to make you love one another? Spread the greetings of Salam (peace) amongst yourselves.”

With every word, you are drifting 

Further away. 

But listen to those 

Heartbeats.

Those silences. 

And prostrate. 

That will the cause of

Your downfall.

That will be the strength   

Of something far more

Beautiful.   

The person you were 

Meant to be. 

Under The Dome by Steven King, The wasted Vigil by Nadeem Aslam, The Plague of Doves by Louse Erdich and The Catcher in The Rye are just sitting there waiting to be read but can’t be because  I have too much other stuff  to do asdfghjkl grr. Alhamdulillah:) DONT WORRY DARLINGS DADDYS COMINGGGGG 

looooool art coursework go disappear pleaseeee because you are pointless and will remain unfinished anyway. -_- 

Speaking and listening exam tomorrow. LOL i wonder if I’ll pull off this piece of text :| I’ve never written anything so emotional to act out in front of an audience. Hope it goes well insha’Allah. Keep me in your du’as guys. :) 

ssiddiqui90:

Abu Hurayrah (RA) reported that the Prophet said:

“Whenever a Muslim is afflicted by harm from sickness or other matters, Allah will drop his sins because of that, like a tree drops its leaves.”

[Bukhari and Muslim]